My blog is going to take a different path this year and I wanted you guys to be the first to know. There are some pretty massive and scary changes coming and I want to write about that journey as it happens and share it with you. I also want to keep my normal posts up as well, when I think of a topic I want to write about more broadly that will follow my normal posts.
The last 18 months have been so strange and so difficult in such a unique way. I was waiting on insurance claims to be processed and it was a total nightmare. I felt so stuck, I couldn't do anything else while these claims were in progress and they dragged on and on and on right up until the end of the year. When it was all over I barely knew how to feel. Although the outcome was good, the process had taken such a toll on me that I just didn't know how to feel and certainly didn't know how to feel happy about it.
Those 18 months were a constant reminder of what I had lost, the life I had ripped away from me and how I was still grieving for the life I had before I moved out of Sydney. As they slowly ticked away I was so isolated and not getting the treatment I need that my Mental Health and other things just got worse. Now that I have moved, the claims are over its time for the next phase of my life, and that's really fucking scary. Although every part of me knows things have to change and the decision I have made is the right one, it terrifies me all the same.
In the meantime, I have a holiday to look forward to next week with my Sister. It's a little bit funny, we are both anxious people, but finally, I am the less anxious one in this situation. I am excited to share this experience with her, she is so special and has been through so much, she deserves this. I have travelled extensively, whilst her trip was when she was about 16yo, so understandably she is anxious about the travelling aspect, but I know she will be fine once we get going.
I would love to see my blog become a little broader this year, despite my passion for Mental Health, I'll fully admit, sometimes I don't want to write about it! I guess sometimes I feel like all there is to me is Mental Health and I know there is so much more. I have been to and experienced so many things in my life and am passionate about travel, politics, history, I could go on. I would also love to get my YouTube channel and podcast up and running, so there are a few things I'd like to do outside the scope of Mental Health. I guess this is my little corner of the internet so I might as well make the most of it.
I really hope you come on this journey with me, because I know 2020 for me is going to be extremely different to 2019 and I am excited and scared for that all at the same time.